This is part 2 Many have the image that to be a good Christian is related to surrender, relinquish and give up everything including joy, and everything that feels good is bad or a sin. I must say that in the first 20 years of my life I was actually not sure of whether God wanted me to be happy or not, that I should feel happiness. There was some talk about suffering for God, and give up things for God. I thought it was very spiritual to not be happy. For instants, I thought it was very spiritual to cry. I assumed that diseases and depression was a part of suffering as a Christian, and that the condemnation and guilt was something that a Christian should have. But I was wrong!